breathe me,

avantgarterbelt said: I don’t know if I’d agree that it’s less effort to go to a private/ivy league but I think it depends on the school. I go to a very ivory-tower type conservatory within a colonial school but my profs for the most part are passionate and have instilled even more passion in me….

I mean, you’re coming from your personal experience clearly and I also never said I think it’s less effort to go to a private/ivy league at ALL. I said that private/ivy league schools are always given more prevalence over public schools when evaluating someone’s degree, which is an insanely sad system that is based on a lot of financial politics and a flawed education system in general. I’m happy that you experienced passionate professors, but based on my own experience at two different private schools, I’ve found that tenure professors lack a care I wish they had for the money I’m paying. Sorry if my own opinion with the system offended your experience…


(by ashley oostdyck)

participating in the private university system for two years of my life, both years at different institutions, has led me to realize how crazy it is that seventeen and eighteen year olds with absolutely no ~real~ life (loosely termed, more just life after high school) experience and no true financial experience are excepted to commit to a university for ~4 years of his/her life with the promise to pay tens of thousands of dollars (or more, usually more) for this education deemed worthy of his/her time, effort, and struggle. because of this, public institutions (i.e. state schools) and 2-year colleges are given a lesser status on the shitty totem pole of education. while many, many, many high school students enter these institutions after graduation, the ones who attend the private schools or even the ~ivy league~ automatically gain higher status, even if their work at these schools is lesser in effort and lacks as much meaning as someone who, with passion, earned a degree from a school lower on the pole. but none of it matters except the price tag, and having had personal experience with two very different private universities, I can attest to that. I have yet to have the pleasure of an inspiring professor, a class leaving me changed/altered within my educational experience, a school staff member eager to help me, etc. and because I go into the classes excited and passionate about what I want my degree for, I know its not me and I know without a doubt I am not alone in my experience. this is why I took a year off of my education, but I was still pressured from myself, my family, and the country to try to make it as “far” as I could, i.e. get into the “best” possible school (or the highest up on the totem pole) my applications and test scores would allow for. my parents never let me see anything “less” as an option. 

but when you think about how short and fragile the human life is, I know I do not want to spend my fleeting youth stuck in a school that isn’t fueling me in any way because I know I am spending thousands of dollars I don’t yet have for professors who visibly don’t care about my learning experience or their students as individuals in general. these are professors who reach tenure and live in a daze until retirement, going through their classes reading off power point presentations or reiterating their entire class plans they’ve had for the last twenty years, making arbitrary rules about using a computer to take notes in class as if it’s necessary to the learning experience to slowly handwrite notes. at my current school, I pay $5,600 per class, which is a whole lot of money I don’t actually have right now. and next semester the tuition has raised 30%, but the professors will be the same.

so how is this worth it for me? my degree is not somehow more valid because I paid more money for it. in fact, I am able to attend class and not really give a shit and still achieve As, so what am I accomplishing? I am not challenged, I am not being changed, I am not learning. But I am paying thousands of dollars to sit in a stifling classroom.

and I feel for all those high school juniors and seniors out there who are in an even worse boat than I was in, because they are now surrounded by conflicting media: one side still spouts the “college is necessary, strive for the highest” bullshit while the other side is more like “hey, loans are ridiculous, education is still important, but maybe think about it all as a whole for a bit.” and on top of all that, they’re all expected to pick a major when they might not even know who they are as a person yet. that’s a ton of responsibility and makes no logical sense, but hey, YOU HAVE TO DO IT OR YOU’LL BE TOLD YOU’RE DOING SOMETHING WRONG.

I took a year off and I didn’t talk to my dad for months. he told me I wasn’t doing anything practical with my life.

well hey, to my dad who doubted me in the past and to all those other fuckers out there who feed into the higher education bullshit, THE PRACTICAL THING IN LIFE IS TO ENRICH YOUR SOUL AND WORK TOWARD HAPPINESS.

(and if that means going to a state school or community college your family thinks isn’t good enough for you but will make you sane and in less/no debt and hey, HAPPY, I say fuck everyone and do what you want)

success isn’t determined by an expensive piece of paper you may or may not get framed, that’s a fucking myth